It seems many people have some kind of problems that they find unsolvable.
Sometimes people have been labeled schizo or some pseudo scientific label.
My advice is
First of all stop trying to be normal, The more you try, the worse things are. Try to just be yourself. Don't try to fit into any mold that others have labeled normal. Maybe you are normal and they are crazy? In fact I am sure all the people that label others with psychological labels, certainly are insane. That is 100% certain. But still even after all that you do have problems.But that is just being human. You just have to do your best every day to be good and learn Musar [Classical and medieval Ethics] and Torah. That means a very specific set of classical ethics. חובות לבבות אורחות צדיקים מסילת ישרים נפש החיים המספיק לעובד השם שערי תשובה ספר הישר של רבינו תם
For a more general audience I would recommend Shimshon Refael Hirsh's Horev.
I should mention that the Musar movement itself produced some very good books. The direct disciples of Israel Salanter wrote some excellent stuff, like the מדגרת האדם. That is a very powerful character changing book that really gets the idea about trust in God into you.
Recently Musar has seemed to gone off in some tangents. Some seem to be "frumaks" that is people that make being frum [religious] into a business. But that is because every good thing can be used for bad also.
Some people find in Musar reason to cease working and depend on charity or to be against Israel or weird kinds of pantheism. This is lamentable. Musar is simply a tool for character improvement and fear of God. It is not meant to advance any political agenda.
Isaac Luria's major book the Eitz Chaim was called a great Musar book
And this in fact is true. But it is also a dangerous tool. What I think is to learn Isaac Luria's book in the context of regular Torah study and not to "make a thing" out of it. People that "make a thing" of kabalah tend to ריבוי אור--too much bright light that breaks the vessels. It is best to work on the Ari after finishing Shas a few times.
The best approach to Musar and Kabalah is to do both in the context of a straight Lithuanian yeshiva in which most of the day the Gemara is learned in depth. That context provides a protective shield against the dark side which tries to take hold of a person when it sees him involved in such things.
For a more general audience I would recommend Shimshon Refael Hirsh's Horev.
I should mention that the Musar movement itself produced some very good books. The direct disciples of Israel Salanter wrote some excellent stuff, like the מדגרת האדם. That is a very powerful character changing book that really gets the idea about trust in God into you.
Recently Musar has seemed to gone off in some tangents. Some seem to be "frumaks" that is people that make being frum [religious] into a business. But that is because every good thing can be used for bad also.
Some people find in Musar reason to cease working and depend on charity or to be against Israel or weird kinds of pantheism. This is lamentable. Musar is simply a tool for character improvement and fear of God. It is not meant to advance any political agenda.
Isaac Luria's major book the Eitz Chaim was called a great Musar book
And this in fact is true. But it is also a dangerous tool. What I think is to learn Isaac Luria's book in the context of regular Torah study and not to "make a thing" out of it. People that "make a thing" of kabalah tend to ריבוי אור--too much bright light that breaks the vessels. It is best to work on the Ari after finishing Shas a few times.
The best approach to Musar and Kabalah is to do both in the context of a straight Lithuanian yeshiva in which most of the day the Gemara is learned in depth. That context provides a protective shield against the dark side which tries to take hold of a person when it sees him involved in such things.
