Why do you have problems is a good question. This does not apply to you alone. I have thought long and hard about peoples problems, and mine in particular, and I have not come to any conclusion And also during the years to learn Torah in a Lithuanian kind of yeshiva. Both these things seem to have a good effect on people that do them.
If there is no straight Litvak yeshiva around (straight means with no insane, charismatic leader), then learn at home. That is to have a of the Oral Law, the Two Talmuds, Mechilta, Sifra, Sifri, Tosephta. Also the basic Rishonim: Ramban, Ritva, Rosh, Rashba.
And the basic Poskim: Rambam, Tur, the big Shulchan Aruch with all the commentaries Taz, Shach, etc. The old editions. not the new ones which mess everything up.
You can get very cheap editions of all the above. When I first got to NY yeshivas I was shocked at how inexpensive these books were. Even though the yeshiva itself had all these books I wanted my own copies for quick reference. In fact in almost any Mizrachi kind of yeshiva every student has his own cardboard or wooden box where he keeps these books near to where he sits and learns .
Yeshiva is incidentally a place for learning Torah for its own sake. This is an important issue because nowadays there are so called yeshivas which learn Torah for money. And they encourage Baali Teshuva to drop out of collage and to become depend on charity and welfare like they are and these kind of places out to be shut down because they are damaging and cultic.
But to be frank I never saw such thing in any NY yeshiva. Even my own Rosh Yeshiva ordered me to go to collage. NY yeshivas are definitely aware that Torah is not to be used for making money.
If people need an introduction to Torah before getting into the details, I can't give an exact idea.
But I think the Sefer Hachinuch was very good for me. It follows the order of the Mitzvot of the Rambam but gives a more thorough explanation of each mitzvah. Shimshon Refael Hirsh's books the Horev and The 19 Letters also seem to be very good. The major rule for getting an introduction to Torah is to avoid cults that divert and change to meaning of Torah to fit their hidden agenda.
The major problem today in the Jewish world is that of cults. And it is inevitable that the minute you walk in the door you will be confronted by someone who wants to traps you into one of their scams. This is completely pervasive in the insane religious world , and impossible to avoid. Thus in general I say to stay home to learn Torah until people throw out the cults. And you know exactly what I mean.
{Lithuanian yeshivas are not cults but can be sometimes problematic. And judging by the current state of affairs it is a good idea to join one or to make one. But only on condition that it is elitist and lets in not noxious breezes from the insane religious world cults.} The normal litvak yeshiva used to be very careful what kinds of books they would let in
If there is no straight Litvak yeshiva around (straight means with no insane, charismatic leader), then learn at home. That is to have a of the Oral Law, the Two Talmuds, Mechilta, Sifra, Sifri, Tosephta. Also the basic Rishonim: Ramban, Ritva, Rosh, Rashba.
And the basic Poskim: Rambam, Tur, the big Shulchan Aruch with all the commentaries Taz, Shach, etc. The old editions. not the new ones which mess everything up.
You can get very cheap editions of all the above. When I first got to NY yeshivas I was shocked at how inexpensive these books were. Even though the yeshiva itself had all these books I wanted my own copies for quick reference. In fact in almost any Mizrachi kind of yeshiva every student has his own cardboard or wooden box where he keeps these books near to where he sits and learns .
Yeshiva is incidentally a place for learning Torah for its own sake. This is an important issue because nowadays there are so called yeshivas which learn Torah for money. And they encourage Baali Teshuva to drop out of collage and to become depend on charity and welfare like they are and these kind of places out to be shut down because they are damaging and cultic.
But to be frank I never saw such thing in any NY yeshiva. Even my own Rosh Yeshiva ordered me to go to collage. NY yeshivas are definitely aware that Torah is not to be used for making money.
If people need an introduction to Torah before getting into the details, I can't give an exact idea.
But I think the Sefer Hachinuch was very good for me. It follows the order of the Mitzvot of the Rambam but gives a more thorough explanation of each mitzvah. Shimshon Refael Hirsh's books the Horev and The 19 Letters also seem to be very good. The major rule for getting an introduction to Torah is to avoid cults that divert and change to meaning of Torah to fit their hidden agenda.
The major problem today in the Jewish world is that of cults. And it is inevitable that the minute you walk in the door you will be confronted by someone who wants to traps you into one of their scams. This is completely pervasive in the insane religious world , and impossible to avoid. Thus in general I say to stay home to learn Torah until people throw out the cults. And you know exactly what I mean.
{Lithuanian yeshivas are not cults but can be sometimes problematic. And judging by the current state of affairs it is a good idea to join one or to make one. But only on condition that it is elitist and lets in not noxious breezes from the insane religious world cults.} The normal litvak yeshiva used to be very careful what kinds of books they would let in
