Belief in God is rational. Everything has a cause. So unless there is a first cause, then you would have an infinite regress. And then nothing could exist. Therefore there must be a first cause. Therefore God, the first cause, exists. QED.
1.5.22
לא תעשה לך כל תמונה "Do not make an picture"
Even though I do not want to be overly legalistic, still it occurred to me yesterday how a lot of the laws of the Torah are ignored or even worse--explained away. לא תעשה לך כל תמונה "Do not make a picture." ''Temuna'' means image or form. It does not say that it has to be 3-d. [In fact, this was noticed by Protestants who then spent their creative efforts in the direction of music instead of the visual arts--as had been the case with the Catholics.]
There are other examples. Interest is well known example, for the banks in Israel have the "היתר עיסקא" (heter iska) which is sort of ok, but also somewhat awkward. This is towards the end on Bava Metzia [I forget the page number.] But the main idea is still that the possibility of loss has to be included in the deal which doesn't seem to happen in practice.
The Gemara says: אין מקרא יוצא מידי פשוטו "The verse does not come out of its simple explanation." The Gra said this principle applies to all verses.
[There are lots more: Honor thy father and thy mother. Thou Shalt Not Steal. etc. ]
30.4.22
I thought to mention that my mother in law, Mrs. Rita Finn was on the Kinder-transport that her parents sent her on to save her from the Nazis. But though being saved, she was severely abused in England which gave her a lifelong hatred of men. Still she struggled to be a good wife and raise good children--which she did. After all the only reason my wife got married to me was that I was at Shar Yashuv --an authentic Litvak Yeshiva and she could feel and sense the taste of authentic Torah.
It is sad that the difficulties that people go through can end up defining them.
But I do not think there is any cure for this sort of thing. People's emotional wounds can be much deeper than physical wounds.
Still I do have one suggestion, Musar. That is the idea of Rav Israel Salanter to learn the canonical four books of ethics, חובות לבבות מסילת ישרים שערי תשובה אורחות צדיקים for learning the right attitudes can go a long way to reliving one from the burden of harmful attitudes.
her daughter Paula (leah) Finn was wife for me for ten years and gave birth to good children--in particular my son Izhak who was a hidden gem that no one appreciated. He saw the importance of the Gra in the importance of learning in Torah and the seven wisdoms in depth and also bekiut [fast learning by saying the words and going on and then review] He knew the importance of the Land of Israel and the state of Israel and the importance of serving in the Israeli Defense Force29.4.22
Even though I believe Rav Nahman was a very great tzadik, I still regret leaving the world of the Litvak Yeshivot. Part of the reason you can see yourself easily. Where do you find the spirit of Torah? People dedicated to learning and keeping Torah with every fiber of their being? Obviously in the Litvak Yeshivot.
However my own experience in the Litvak world was mixed. So I find it hard to give this a blank endorsement.
