I realize that if learning and understanding Torah is not a goal to someone, then the idea of Rav Nahman of saying the words and going on will not amount to much--or to anything. One has to have had the will and desire to learn Torah, first in order for this to matter.

And that goal I can not relate well to people. The best I have been able to come up with is the Kant Friesian approach of Dr. Kelley Ross, about the importance of knowledge that we know, but not by the senses nor by reason. But even though this kind of knowledge is close to faith, it is not the same.

It was more or less invented to bypass problems that Kant never solved about how we know the categories. [Kant has a list. That is his own list but more or less it is like quantity, quality space time causality which are closely related to Aristotle's ten categories   ] [Kant's argument is surprisingly unconvincing..] ]

And this school of thought has had an odd sort of history. starting with Fries. That ended soon. Then Fischer sunk the last nail into it. Then Leonard Nelson revived it, while against Relativity. That was corrected by Gretta Hermann who was great in many ways, but was not going with Nelson on major points. And I have a tremendous respect for this school of thought, but I just can not agree with the total dismissal of Hegel that is a fundamental axiom. To me it seems that Hegel is simply dealing with different issues. 

music file i32 and i35

 i32 [i32 in midi format]this is from around Jan. 2013 i35 [This is also from the same time period].] [i35 in midi]

 r87 midi music file Again I mention that I am sharing this because I am not writing anything new, so I decided to look into old files to see if there is anything worth sharing.

[I was just writing the music for me. Only now that I seem to have run out of steam, I decided to go and share. But that also means I have to edit! And that means every single piece needs to be worked on before it can be presented.] 

e69 midi file [e69 mp3] [e69 nwc format]written in Uman  right before I came to Israel for a year in Netivot I kind of regret that in my learning session with David Bronson we stopped in towards the end of Bava Metzia page 116. I was really hoping to get to page 119 with him because of the astounding fact that he could see into the depths of the sugia almost without trying. page 119 is important because there is the argument about דורשין טעמה דקרא  We go by the reason for the law, not the literal meaning of the words. And even though I was able to learn what Rav Shach had to say about that subject in the Avi Ezri, I still believe that if I merited to learn that subject with Bronson, I would have seen the almost infinite depth in Tosphot. [And also the next page with those important Tosphot.] חבל על דאבדין It is upsetting to lose ideas and understanding of the depths of those sugiot/subjects that I could have learned and shared with others.

 There is a kind of proof that mysticism, as interesting as it might be, leads to the destruction of one's soul. This ironically enough is from the Ari [Rav Isaac Luria himself]  There are three books that explain verses of the Torah from the Ari written by Rav Chaim Vital. At the end of the Torah on the verse יערוף כמטר לקחי [my doctrine will pour/murder like rain] refers to those that learn mysticism before having fulfilled all the conditions of fasting and separation from this world, and also having finished the two Talmuds in depth.

[Is there a solution to this problem? I am not sure. The Shelah [Shnei Luchot Habrit] brings the idea one should not stroll in Pardes unless he has spent most of the day in Gemara. 

 Wyatt Earp decided to get some "culture" , so he and his friend bought a set of Shakespeare. After some time someone asked him what he thought of Shakespeare. Answer: "That feller Hamet was sure talkative. He would not have lasted long in Kansas."

And that of course was the whole issue with Earp. When someone decided to interview him for a book of his life story Earp had only three words he would answer to any question. "Yep", "Nope", and "Don't recall."

I learned this lesson in a different way in the LeM of Rav Nahman, vol I:6 that hold that by silence one merits to his bat zivug. [soul-mate] [Not in so many words but, in a later Torah lesson he says that Torah lesson vol I:6 holds the intensions of Elul and the intensions of Elul are good for finding one's bat zivug.] 

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