I believe that learning Torah will help everything turn around for you for the good.
Learning Torah goes very far if done on a consistent basis. Try to start learning Gemara and Mishna yourself. Even just saying the words is a great mitzvah. The Jerusalem Talmud says that even one word of Torah goes above all the other mitzvot.
There are many mental blocks before this. That is it is not so hard in itself. But rather there are many questions on this. It is hard to accept. It was one of the first things I learned in yeshiva. That is I was in yeshiva in NY in the first place because I felt learning Torah is important. But in that yeshiva Shar Yashuv I saw a book בנין עולם about the importance of learning Torah.
It is safe to say I fell away from this. But for the few years I had the merit to learn in Far Rockaway and then at the Mir in NY this idea about the importance of learning Torah really lit a fuse under me.
I do hold from the importance of Physics and Metaphysics also as the Rambam wrote, but that is only after one has finished Shas.
Learning Torah goes very far if done on a consistent basis. Try to start learning Gemara and Mishna yourself. Even just saying the words is a great mitzvah. The Jerusalem Talmud says that even one word of Torah goes above all the other mitzvot.
There are many mental blocks before this. That is it is not so hard in itself. But rather there are many questions on this. It is hard to accept. It was one of the first things I learned in yeshiva. That is I was in yeshiva in NY in the first place because I felt learning Torah is important. But in that yeshiva Shar Yashuv I saw a book בנין עולם about the importance of learning Torah.
It is safe to say I fell away from this. But for the few years I had the merit to learn in Far Rockaway and then at the Mir in NY this idea about the importance of learning Torah really lit a fuse under me.
I do hold from the importance of Physics and Metaphysics also as the Rambam wrote, but that is only after one has finished Shas.
