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14.3.22

 In the book of Job we find God sided with Job, even though he was wrong. Not with Elihu the son the Esau even though he was right.  Elihu had said exactly as the Gemara itself says אין  ייסורים בלי עוון There are no afflictions without sin. So we see it is not what one believes or says that is the key difference. Rather it is what one is, his essence--his deeds.

 [I am referring to the end of the Book of Job where God sides with Job in spite of everything his friends had said was true. 

Acta non verba-actions not words is what matters. 

13.3.22

 שיחו בכל נפלאותיו (speak of all of His Wonders) psalms105 It is hard to imagine that to speak of the wonders of God would not include his wonders in the way He created the Universe. The Laws of Physics. And Rav Nahman clearly had a idea about this saying the there is hidden Torah in the ground. טבעו בארץ שעריה [the gates of Torah sank into the ground. Now the hidden Torah is sunk into the Laws of Physics.] 

[I am referring to one of the last Torah lessons in volume one of the LeM] 


 z63 midi file  e21 in midi

s7 [in midi]

I want to thank those looking at my blog for your interest in the music has given me motivation to continue to edit older pieces. But z63 is more recent. e21 is from around 2005 but needed editing

music file j1 and e21

j1 midi file

e21 

These were written in Uman. I did not find any place where I could sit and learn Torah as I had desired, so I just found some corner in Uman where I could spend some time learning Torah with a learning partner [David Bronson who spent all of his time at the ziun of Rav Nahman], and then spend my time alone writing music. [That learning session with Bronson was only an hour a day, but I gained a tremendous amount by learning from him.]]


12.3.22

 Even though I saw the greatness of Torah, it was clear that people that assumed the role for pay of religious teachers were what Rav Nachman said were Torah Scholars that are demons. LeM I:12, 28 [note 1] it was clear to me that there is a difference between those that learn Torah for its own sake and those that get a paid salary for being religious teachers. But I am in no way against kollel leit [people] that are learning Torah for its own sake--but to do so much accept a kollel check.

Rather the issue is the phony semicha ordination that is meant to defraud people. For real semicha ceased sometime during the period of the amoraim [sages of the Talmud]. Anything called ordination now automatically shows its bearer to be a fraud. [One should run from anyone bearing the title of a religious teacher, as one runs from cancer.]

So the issue you might say is that I do not agree with using Torah as a means of making money, but more accurately you should say I saw something off in those that do so. [I simply had no mental tools to understand the problem them in until I saw Rav Nahman's description of Torah scholars that are demons. Then it all started making sense. 


 [note 1] This issue is brought in other places in the LeM of Rav Nahman. LeM I:8, 61 II:1, 8 and that last one is the last Torah lesson Rav Nahman every said. So he saw this issue as important.]  

n65 music file

 n65 midi 

n65 mp3  n65 nwc

This is another old file from long ago. I just decided to share old files with people since I am not writing anything new. I am what Rav Nahman calls in מוחין דקטנות [a state of a fallen mind.]

11.3.22

music file p120

 p120 chs mp3 [chs in midi formats100 [ThisS100  was actually never finished, until I was going through old files and noticed it.]

exodus 4 midi file [There is a story behind this piece exodus 4. I was taking the Greyhound bus back to California after being in Uman for Rosh Hashanah. We got off for a 30 min stop in Philadelphia. As soon as I got off the bus,  this song came to me and I spent the whole 30 minutes  writing it down, but I could not get on the bus until it was finished and in fact I just finished it and jumped on the bus just as it was pulling out.  [And in fact I had no money if I had been stuck.]

e34 mp3 [e34 same in midi format]

h94

i6 midi file

i1

e19 (4) midi